Wednesday, September 5, 2012

May 2nd, 2012


I’m so ready for you to get here little girl.  Last week I found out that I have gestational diabetes.  I had taken the glucose test a week before and the test came back that I was borderline, so they wanted me to come in for the 3-hour test the next week.  It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be but it definitely wasn’t fun either.  After it was over, I was optimistic because of two things – one was the fact that I had drank a Dr. Pepper before the first test I took which would affect my sugar for that test; second because after I left the test I felt like my sugar was super low which is what was supposed to happen.  They told me they would call me if there was bad news by the next afternoon.  

 I waited and waited and the day came and went.  I was feeling pretty good that night at church because I never got the call.  The next morning I got a call from a number I didn’t recognize (which usually means it’s Fairview) and knew what was about to occur.  The lady on the other end of the phone told me that the test had come back and all of the blood samples showed high blood sugar.  I failed the test miserably.  I didn’t think I would be upset; really diet and exercise should be able to keep such a thing under control.  The lady told me I needed to come to the doctor’s office as soon as I could which was within 20 minutes.  I told her sure and started to get on my way.   

I checked out of work and got in my car.  I kept telling myself it was no big deal – don’t be upset.  But I wasn’t okay – I cried harder than I ever had.  I chalk it up to pregnant hormones!  I cried all the way to the clinic and then parked in a parking lot across the street because I knew I couldn’t go in.  I called Ryan – I had already called him crying while driving to the clinic to tell him what was going on – and I told him I couldn’t go in by myself.  He decided he could come and meet me to go to my appointment.  I was glad.  I knew he was 20-30 minutes away and I could hopefully regain my composure before he got there.  I started to put on my makeup to that I didn’t look like I’d been crying as much as I had but couldn’t do it.  I started crying again.  I decided to just let it happen and get it all out since now I had some time.  Eventually I was able to calm down somewhat and put on my makeup and waited for Ryan.  I still felt like I could cry at any moment but I knew I could at least get through this meeting.  

Ryan got to the clinic and we went in.  We met with a lady who told me facts about gestational diabetes and talked as if I had known about it for some time and not that I had literally just found out, cried my eyes out, and walked in the door.  That was actually comforting to me in a way.  The lady told me that I would have to change my diet and also check my blood sugar four times a day.  I was very surprised by this because I had read that you didn’t have to do so.  The thought of pricking my finger four times a day did not sound like a good idea at all.  She took my sugar there in the office to show my how to use the meter.  After our meeting I had to give blood once again – which has now just become something I do.  I felt much better after the appointment and Ryan and I went to eat lunch together.  I also had to make another appointment for a week later (today) to get an ultrasound and meet with a dietitian.  I cried again later that night but for the most part felt peace about it.  

Since then I changed my diet and checked my sugar 4 times a day.  It hasn’t been that difficult except that I had trouble with Kroger getting my prescription filled.  My sugar seemed to be normal except for in the morning after fasting my sugar was always high.  I read that it was pretty normal to have that happen, especially to women so I didn’t think much about it.  

Today was my appointment at the ultrasound and dietician.  The ultrasound was fine as usual – they told me that the fluid around the baby was a little more than normal which can be from the diabetes but the baby looked normal.  

The dietician told me that she wants me to take a low dose of some medication for my sugar that is high in the mornings.  This upset me because the diet that they have put me on is completely different from what I was told at Fairview so I would have liked to have a chance to try the new diet before them jumping the gun on medication.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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